“Genuine beginnings begin within us, even when they are brought to our attention by external opportunities”- William Bridges
I’ve been thinking a lot about the course our lives take, and how we are more in charge than sometimes we think.
Back in 1986, at the tender age of 25, while still attempting to get a comic strip in the newspapers, I was sketching in my notebook, and suddenly wrote out ” If minds are going to watch the screen anyway, why not put something useful there? Create characters that entertain, provoke thought, and use the platform to help in other ways”. I’m not sure why I wrote this at that time. I had not yet discovered animation, never considered television as a useful place for anything, and the computer at the time was an infant that needed twenty codes to type a document. Yet after that, the world started spinning for me. I was on a path that I wasn’t quite aware of, yet felt so right. I abandoned comic strips, and found animation. Even when I thought my future was in independent films for festivals, I got swept up in the wave of 90′s animation in television. I learned, studied. Rocko and Lazlo feel more like stepping stones for me, as well as the education of producing, managing crews, managing budgets, etc.
Over twenty years later, I feel I’m still playing out that goal. And I still have a ways to go.
I’ve cursed at times the need I have to remain so independent. I feels a lot easier to care for a family and have job security when one makes peace with working for someone else. It’s noble for sure. But for me, it’s a sweater that keeps you warm, but itches like hell. ( I think I stole that from Hunter Thompson.) There are many who have achieved high potential working for someone else. We are all different breeds.
The life of an independent artist/business owner was probably one of the hardest I could have aspired for. My Dad tried to talk me out of it. Loved ones got tired of watching me fall flat on my face. ( and trust me, I still do.) But for some reason, I keep getting up.
Some day I may not.
But until then, I’ll keep carrying out my marching orders. It’s all a mystery, isn’t it?